When someone sees you being an idiot…
It’s really frustrating and stressful for me when someone I care about is clearly… upset, or a bit down, or whatever word they’d use… and I can’t get them to talk about it. I know this is a common thing. You’re there to help, and it has nothing to do with you. It’s about them. If they don’t want to talk about it, or don’t want to talk about it with you, then what can you do? I don’t even want to ask, ‘hey are you ok?’ because I’ve done that recently and, well, other things. I just think, I need to back off. I hate that.
So, I guess I both feel frustrated that I can’t help, and a little like an ass because I get frustrated about that. Like, I’m more frustrated that I’m not helping than I am that they’re upset. It’s just stupid.
You have to trust that people value you. That they trust you to the level that you deserve. And that offering to be a friend and interested in their life is enough. I really worry that I force things sometimes. Because, if I don’t try hard enough, I’ll miss out on something. That’s the mindset I get in. And I know it’s dumb. I know I stress myself out over things like this. But damn it, I want this to work. I want to be someone they can count on and go to. And then I worry, maybe it’s about me. I have to stop worrying about this.
few things bother me more than trying to talk to someone and getting nothing back.
and then trying again and getting nothing back.
and so forth.